We have been acquainted for almost a year, we are learning on the same stream. When they began to communicate, I was in love with me unrequitedly with another guy, and our communication was based mainly on his advice or washing my brain, because the guy with whom I was in love openly used me.
I don’t remember how it happened, but after a while in our communication, ambiguous hints began to slip. I always liked him, but I never looked at him more than at a friend. Perhaps his good attitude towards me gave birth to this feeling. In general, as a result of these circumstances, the two of us, by mutual desire, ended up in the apartment of our mutual friend, who was not in the city.
Of course, initially the initiative came from him, but I supported. While watching a movie, he began to pester me. By the way, at that time he had a girlfriend, but the relationship was gradually fading away.
In general, I wondered what would happen, so I did not stop him. In the end, we kissed. It almost got to bed, but I stopped him. We fell asleep.
In the morning everything was as before, almost. Only now I could not forget how he kisses, and even more - his reaction to him, how he gently hugs ... Everything was perfect. If it were not for the fact that I do not interest him as a girl. As a result, we parted after this, and a day later I learned that he had called his girlfriend into this apartment ... I understand why.
We continued to communicate, as if nothing had happened, but a week later it happened again. I could not refuse, remembering how I liked it. Again, at the right moment, I again refused him.
For the third time, everything was exactly the same. But the third time I was after drinking and I didn’t think much, and in general I didn’t want much from him, it was as if I didn’t care. But then it passed, and it hurt me again that it all happened.
After the third time, when I decided to find out what was happening, he said that it was just entertainment, to relieve the tension, but he needed not only sex. Initially, the point was that we spent the night, and I forgot that guy. However, I remember how he comforted me when my ex was doing this to me, and I believe my friend could not do the same, knowing that I did not care for him.
In general, after that we talked a little. The summer has passed. I have a relationship, he, too. Both eventually broke up with their halves and again remembered each other. I was the first to talk to him, just started a conversation more than “hello, how are you”.
And it so happened that our common friend left again and left the apartment. He called me again ... And I agreed. This time everything was without ceremony, he immediately kissed me. And again I did not give, dodging that I just wanted to talk.
We talked all night just like that, sometimes kissing a little more, but not going abroad. And closer to the morning he told me directly: "let's have sex." Then I turned around and told him that I had this experience and I didn’t need a guy who didn’t care about me again. He apologized, kissed, hugged, and we fell asleep.
But the arms were as before - tender; I like it so much when he hugs ... In general, we have said goodbye in the morning and have not written off anymore. But I feel that I have something for him, I scroll through the moments in my head with kisses and hugs, it was one of the best that I had. But he is not interested in something ... And I do not want to fall in love again without an answer. I still want to repeat it, although I understand that it will lead to nothing. Yes, and he behaves so only when we are together ...
What to do? How to behave?
